Working it out !

I have been Working out here now 3 or 4 Days now. I never thought it feel great, i mean when i think of Working out i think of pain and being sore and out of breath all the time . But once i started working out it was like a drug for me i couldn't stop i wanted to keep going back and keep working out. Working out is awesome and since i don't have a job at the moment i have the time to go and work out freely and i have seen a different in my body and eating habits as well . I eat less now then i have in a  long time i have really shocked myself . anything i normally would eat is now cut in half i get so full its not even funny and im proud of myself . i can walk longer and my brother pushes me to keep going and never give up . oh did i say we  have a brother sister fitness goal and we push each other to do better and its easy because were brother and sister so were always pushing each other .and then my Husband pushes me to keep going to the gym and my friend works out with me as well and thats awesome because its cool to work out with someone at times other then my brother aka a Boy lol . I look forward to going to the gym in the morning . i love my gym the people are great and very nice and don't make me feel like the FAT Girl working out i feel like i belong with the rest of the crew there and cant wait to be able to move up and try new things and push my self to new and better goals .so until next time .. You can do it ! if i can you can so keep going im here for you and i know YOU CAN DO IT !!!!

Addicted to Food ?!?!

Addicted or Not Addicted that's my Question.lol ..Okay So the thing is I think im addicted to food . Like i cant stop thinking about food all the time i cant even eat then go shopping for food and not think about going home and eatting or trying everything we bought . and then its like once i start snacking i cant stop im a big snacker . I snack all the time like i feel like i can eat a full meal and be stuffed and then be like i never ate anything 10 to 20 Minutes later and that scares me alot .Because Being addicted to food and Dieting isnt easy to do .How do you control that?. How can you control your mind from thinking about food 24\7 when its everywhere on the TV , Internet, Books and all up and down the middle of town .How is a  Girl Suppose to control her self when living in the U.S and Everything is bigger sizes including people .. makes me wanna scream like idk i have went and seen someone once about my eatting habits and they just basicly told me to stop and picked on everything i was eating or doing in my life and told me i needed to change and then didnt show me how . ..Like whats a girl to do . I dont want this to get out of control .Id love to keep my weight under control and lose what i have to lose so that i can get pregnant and my future baby to be healthy and have a chance to grow inside me full term . This could be my last round of 2.5mg Letrozol aka Femara . My dr waited until i started my cycle on my own and now im started round 4  of the femara so fingers crossed . Dose anyone know if Metformin makes you eat more or less ? im not really sure how this weight loss journey will go but im hoping for the best.i have to much riding on this . wish me luck !!

The ''D'' Word Blog #2

The ''D'' Word ..Diet ..That Word makes every girl go ugh . We As Girls love Chocolate and Sweets and hate the fact that a guy can eat all he wants and never gain a ounce and if he did he don't care . Us as girls are stuck in a world where we have to look like the girl in the pictures or ones on TV .Its a never ending reminder of our weight and it sucks .Like i am told all the time not to worry about what other girls think and what other people say about me that im perfect just the way i am. But What they don't  see is the Health issues behind it. I hate going to the Doctors and getting on the scale and looking at my weight go up and down . I am 267 pounds right now Last month i was 265 and the month before i was 262 and before that 273.My weight is everywhere and its hard to keep under control along with p.c.o.s fighting me the whole way . That is why my Blog is Me Against my Body. Going on a Diet is easy sticking to it is the hard part. Most people say That eating right and working out is not hard to do if you want it bad enough. But most of them are skinny and never Had to fight with there body or deal with being infertile and stress and having kids running around its hard to find time to balance work ,college and kids and my love life with my hubby and still find time to cook right and work out . Try running crazy with 4 kids ages 6 .9 and 11 and tell me if you can cook a meal and your kids let you work out .. Its more like take out and the kids are your work out lol My biggest thing is im a late night muncher. So i have alot of things to work on and its going to be hard but thats why im blog to tell others about my journey and maybe someone can say hey im not alone in this ! so my Question is What do you do to diet ?

Intro Blog #1

Welcome to my Blog where We will be going on a Journey to Lose Weight and Get pregnant . Sounds easy right ?...Not for a Girls like me .Now i know What your Saying ''What is this crazy blogger talking about''? ..Well ill tell you .My Name is Ashley , I'm 22 years old and I'm Engaged to My wonderful Boyfriend Chris who is 30 .We have been Engaged for a year now and have been together 2 years April 4th. My Boyfriend and i have been trying to get pregnant for about a year now with no luck .Because i have P.C.O.S Aka Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome .Google it you will find out all that this pain in my but syndrome is ..I have Had it Since i was 13 years old .I never Really thought about what it was doing to my body .I was like hey No period ..Pshhh Periods who needs them there a  pain in the but and no one likes Mother Nature bring that gift to the party .And at 13 i wasn't Worried about getting pregnant . Heck i didn't Care for boys all that much at all .But as my weight picked up my mom started to to worry about my health .At age 19 and weighing 200 Lbs what guy would i get anyways is what i told myself alot . But then i got a job Working as a OB tech and i started  to fall in love with the idea of having a baby one day . So i started researching fertility Clinics and Medications . By the time i was 20 i knew what i thought was alot of info on Fertility drugs . Then i met my Boyfriend and we fell in love and a year later starterd dancing around the idea of having a baby and getting married . He Already has a Set of twins by his first wife but he liked the idea of having one more ..Half way into our trying to get pregnant we became foster parents to my 2 cousins and now plan to adopt them but still want one of our own . The Twins are 6 1 boy 1girl and My cousins are 9 and 11 a boy and girl as well. While TTCing wasn't going right so i turn to YouTube for Answers .YES youtube i know sounds crazy but you can just about find anything on youtube now days . and thats where i found a group of Ladies that shared the same thing i had PCOS and so much more i gain Info and Best Friends and watched as a few got pregnant after years of trying  and so we went with the info we knew and My Dr Started me on Clomid and then later Femara . But no luck so now HE said i need to lose weight at 267 lbs he is right so that brings me to the hard part losing the weight  going on a diet is easier said then done so i need all the help i can get fallow me through a long  journey .WE CAN DO THIS  TOGETHER!!!

Below is a List of symptoms of PCOS

It is one of the most common female endocrine disorders affecting approximately 5%-10% of women of reproductive age (12–45 years old) and is thought to be one of the leading causes of female subfertility.While the causes are unknown, insulin resistance, diabetes, and obesity are all strongly correlated with PCOS.

Common symptoms of PCOS include

• Menstrual disorders - mostly oligomenorrhea or amenorrhea but other types of menstrual disorders may also occur.
• Infertility, generally resulting from chronic anovulation (lack of ovulation).
• Hirsutism — symptoms of hyperandrogenism, such as acne or hypermenorrhea Approximately three-fourths of patients with PCOS (by the diagnostic criteria of NIH/NICHD 1990) have evidence of hyperandrogenemia.
• Metabolic syndrome, characterised by central obesity, insulin resistance and other symptoms.

PCOS can present in any age during the reproductive years. Due to its often vague presentation it can take years to reach a diagnosis.

Serum insulin, insulin resistance and homocysteine levels are significantly higher in subjects having PCOS.